CT-less
I've decided to resign from all my CT's, I feel so bad but designing and working and being ill is taking what little energy I have. It was a sad decision for me and I cried about it...memories of my first days of digiscrapping last year and how thrilling it was to do CT layouts and really get into the process...I have enjoyed it immensely...
Right now I feel so sapped of energy, of creativity, there seems no self to even express, just this harried person trying to work, keep the house halfway decent and come up with something for the shop. I hate living like this but a lot of life is about following through with commitments, regardless of how one feels, and gracefully bowing out of those committments one can no longer honestly fulfill.
I think being on CT's was way easier than designing...with the latter there's a lot of overhead, quality control, packaging, announcing, marketing...I could easily spend four hours on a layout but with designing it goes in fits...I get bored easily, the outcome isn't as quick. Yet some part of me is determined to continue on this new adventure...
Right now I feel so sapped of energy, of creativity, there seems no self to even express, just this harried person trying to work, keep the house halfway decent and come up with something for the shop. I hate living like this but a lot of life is about following through with commitments, regardless of how one feels, and gracefully bowing out of those committments one can no longer honestly fulfill.
I think being on CT's was way easier than designing...with the latter there's a lot of overhead, quality control, packaging, announcing, marketing...I could easily spend four hours on a layout but with designing it goes in fits...I get bored easily, the outcome isn't as quick. Yet some part of me is determined to continue on this new adventure...
4 Comments:
good luck on your new adventure. I stopped designing after trying more than a year. I also got bored by the commercial aspect of it...making layouts for CT's is muxh more fun and rewarding !!!
I hope you succeed in this new path you choose !!
I'm so sorry you had to quit your teams. Yes, designing is definitely time consuming, especially the promoting of the work. Hope you are feeling much better very soon.
I'm so sorry Debra! I'll bet it WAS hard to step down! I've stepped down then 30 mins later begged for my place back, atleast 4 times on various CTs! LOL It is hard!
That would be a hard decision to make. I hope you start to feel better soon though.
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