CT-less

I've decided to resign from all my CT's, I feel so bad but designing and working and being ill is taking what little energy I have. It was a sad decision for me and I cried about it...memories of my first days of digiscrapping last year and how thrilling it was to do CT layouts and really get into the process...I have enjoyed it immensely...

Right now I feel so sapped of energy, of creativity, there seems no self to even express, just this harried person trying to work, keep the house halfway decent and come up with something for the shop. I hate living like this but a lot of life is about following through with commitments, regardless of how one feels, and gracefully bowing out of those committments one can no longer honestly fulfill.

I think being on CT's was way easier than designing...with the latter there's a lot of overhead, quality control, packaging, announcing, marketing...I could easily spend four hours on a layout but with designing it goes in fits...I get bored easily, the outcome isn't as quick. Yet some part of me is determined to continue on this new adventure...